Always there is a heart invovled..!

Loving 'HER' made me feel that there is no sadness in the world other than being heartbroken. Though as time passed I found an answer that there is lot of sadness in this world than merely being heartbroken.

The weight that fell on my heart and long hours of putting the pain onto a paper, into words, churning thoughts made me feel how being a writer can be impossibly difficult. Sitting in a boring room whining away my time like an ICU patient awaiting to get his life support removed so that he chooses death by choice rather than the pain kills him before, was enough inspiration to write a stack of novels. Even death can be an inspiration!

The unending stream of questions on love and life, appeared to be complicated math puzzles, sounded a familiar territory but the answer kept evading.

While I chose to remain where I was; a voice begged for my attention; for my notice. Returning back from my world of delusions and illusions, I observed a man placed in front of me two passport size pictures on his beautiful daughters, one of whom keeps falling ill so much so that he had been reduced to selling his possessions in the attempt to find a reason; a cure for even a name for what his 6 month old daughter suffers from.

The man asked me for nothing but a listening ear and I heard to all that ailed him. Amidst a conversation that may have lasted a few minutes, the man shared with me; a stranger, more that he had with his colleagues. As he walked away; I couldn't help but realize how heartbroken this man really was and isn't this exactly what being heartbroken is?

When you love something or someone from the core of your heart and it appears that the circumstances chose to place you such that a feeling of despair becomes you. Helplessness engulfs you for all the dreams and wishes one makes for their choice of love; it appears they can do nothing more than be a silent viewer. More so ever situations become worse when one doesn't know what pleasure is and what pain can do!

A career; a child; a friend; a mate; a love; name it whatever you wish but in every circumstance and in every event there always is a heart involved.

So from what I can gather as a mere observer is that while there may be much more sadness in the world than merely being heartbroken, in each scenario; every time; no matter who the characters in the play of life are; there always is a heart involved....

One that has been shaken, broken to thousand pieces and may never stick together..

One that seeks to be nursed, healed and loved.......

And one that blindly follows the only course it knows.

-Saadhu